Panic attack and suicidal thoughts.

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I felt this was important to share – in case anyone is watching. Panic attacks are common, as are intrusive thoughts. My PTSD can disrupt my sleep, but this was different. I was wide awake and freaking out watching it all. The thoughts were excruciating, and the shame overwhelming.

Sufficating and utter fear. I think it’s important to mention “dark places” so others know it’s okay when these thoughts happen. Thoughts can be uncontrollable. There is a difference between suicidal thoughts and being suicidal. It doesn’t mean I am a risk to myself. I do not want people to be scared to talk about it. Intrusive thoughts can be dark and we judge ourselves. No more shame.

Published by Calypso

Just a wandering messy soul trying to navigate the distorted worlds of my mind, body, heart, soul and spirit. Sometimes by sight, sometimes by sounds, sometimes by feel, sometimes even by smell and taste.. and sometimes by all or none. I actually have no intention of “publishing” this or share with any need for acceptance, understanding, insight… Just getting it out. Just letting it come out. I experience and express life through words, the written word. Somehow the chaos of my mind is able to grab and sort the letters swirling around and place them in some order. And this is how I find … my distorted clarity.

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