Reading Others

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So I have been exploring this site… and have realized no one would watch or read what I have written because it’s boring. I even bore myself, it’s fine it makes me laugh.

But who honestly would read or watch the rambling. That’s not why I do it, it’s purely for me. I also noticed I have such a short attention span with ADHD that I can only make it two, maybe three sentences in. Esp in this format.

Even now here I bore myself. 🤣

I think it’s funny someone who drools on so much can’t read others. I’m sorry I can’t, what they say is important, and might give me insight. Maybe on the big screen rather a phone.

How is it that I can read research articles and not other peoples work? Maybe it’s all just too personal. Idk .. I just amuse myself with my hypocritism, an annoying slightly sick feeling amusement.

Another way of wondering why I can’t be different. I want to read others, I just can’t stay focused…. Yet here I am thinking I’ve only written a few sentences and it’s a novel.

Ugh

Published by Calypso

Just a wandering messy soul trying to navigate the distorted worlds of my mind, body, heart, soul and spirit. Sometimes by sight, sometimes by sounds, sometimes by feel, sometimes even by smell and taste.. and sometimes by all or none. I actually have no intention of “publishing” this or share with any need for acceptance, understanding, insight… Just getting it out. Just letting it come out. I experience and express life through words, the written word. Somehow the chaos of my mind is able to grab and sort the letters swirling around and place them in some order. And this is how I find … my distorted clarity.

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