mental disorder – Distorted Clarity

A child named Fear.

I’m not sure what’s in my head, I want to write on this but it’s spinning so much and I can’t get it slow enough to see or hear to make sense of it. There’s just so much up there in my head and it’s always trying to sort things out. I wish I couldContinue reading “A child named Fear.”

Rebound Day

I’ll come back and add more later for me to refer to later as I think there are a few things I’d like myself to remember. But for now just storing it.

Dark Day Feb. 26

Sunday was one of the darkest days I have had in a bit .. meaning like a few months. Again, I’m not posting the videos of me talking to myself down off the ledge… for obvious reasons. But it was honestly the only thing that was keeping me connected to “reality”. Being a bipolar motherContinue reading “Dark Day Feb. 26”

My Day in Bits – Feb. 22-23

Snippets of the days for tracking and documenting… I imagine there are parts that are duplicates from single videos. Again…. boring as fuck to someone else. This is only for me. I used these videos yesterday in trying to trace back to find out what my moods were and what had happened. I often forgetContinue reading “My Day in Bits – Feb. 22-23”

Being Loyal to yourself.

The other day I said I was loyal to someone even before I really knew them, and I thought of it as an attribute of mine. Like it was something they should appreciate. Later I thought about it and realized how unfair that is to myself, and it really isn’t loyalty at all, but someContinue reading “Being Loyal to yourself.”

I am Bipolar ~ STOP calling me crazy.

I am done with people using that word so freely around me. I use it for myself because I like being wacky and goofy and silly, so that’s the crazy I call myself. But that’s not how others mean it. So if you were to describe me to someone and say I’m crazy, you’re makingContinue reading “I am Bipolar ~ STOP calling me crazy.”