I don’t think I posted my “losing my shit” videos after I received my graded paper back and the freaked-out emails I sent to Mr. Sir Professor. Probably a good thing. Freakouts are never a good thing to be viewed. But gotta love how I have absolutely ZERO control of my emotions or ability toContinue reading “Panic at the Salon”
Tag Archives: Wanderings
One day I’ll come back
One day I’ll come back here and see the things I had yearned to write upon. They will be the clues for my hide and seek for the words now lost within my head. Somehow I will splice them all together and they’ll never be what I had once intended. Or I think not… IContinue reading “One day I’ll come back”
My life as a haircut.
Haircuts… haven’t really gotten one in years and years. Just been wearing it long, on shoulders, all one length for years. Mistakenly did the bang thing, and been hacking away at it for months. But today we went to try and get it professionally done. I’m quiet and don’t talk much and can’t really explainContinue reading “My life as a haircut.”
Trying to hold myself together. Feb. 24-25, 2023
Another grouping of bits throughout day. I used this earlier to try and figure out what turned me down into dark “end of days” zone. It was not a pretty weekend. Rapid cycling sucks, being a bipolar Mum sucks, living this life and not being able to control my brain and emotions and moods andContinue reading “Trying to hold myself together. Feb. 24-25, 2023”
Being Loyal to yourself.
The other day I said I was loyal to someone even before I really knew them, and I thought of it as an attribute of mine. Like it was something they should appreciate. Later I thought about it and realized how unfair that is to myself, and it really isn’t loyalty at all, but someContinue reading “Being Loyal to yourself.”
I am Bipolar ~ STOP calling me crazy.
I am done with people using that word so freely around me. I use it for myself because I like being wacky and goofy and silly, so that’s the crazy I call myself. But that’s not how others mean it. So if you were to describe me to someone and say I’m crazy, you’re makingContinue reading “I am Bipolar ~ STOP calling me crazy.”
Tracking the Day
I may come back and write more so I have the notes for myself. But, this was just an experiment in trying to track my day and how I fluctuated or felt before after things or meds or nights sleep. I’m not sure what I’m trying to do with all of this. Maybe I’m justContinue reading “Tracking the Day”
Rejection – Sensitive Dysphoria
Some might have heard of RSD before. Very common with bipolar / ADHD. It explains a lot of things with me. Not that knowing about it is much help. I still freak out, and while I hate using it as an excuse for my behavior, I have a better understanding of the reason I feelContinue reading “Rejection – Sensitive Dysphoria”
Reading Others
So I have been exploring this site… and have realized no one would watch or read what I have written because it’s boring. I even bore myself, it’s fine it makes me laugh. But who honestly would read or watch the rambling. That’s not why I do it, it’s purely for me. I also noticedContinue reading “Reading Others”
Distorted Clarity 